In 2021 I had a rather severe anxiety disorder. Every night, I kept my eyes open and wept silently. It was hard to sleep until early in the morning. I had no way to feel happy and could not eat much food. I became very thin and emaciated.

Most of the time, I lay motionless in bed. I felt like I was turning into a pool of stagnant water. It slowly swirled and only despair remained.

I lost myself and even hallucinated. One day, when I closed my eyes, I saw a little monster smiling at me in the darkness.

It glowed with colored light and walked up to me. It wrapped itself around me like a jelly and then set fireworks off inside me. The splat exploded and I saw the beautiful world of color again.

That was the inspiration about this creation.